I think the season hardest for me, after all my losses, is the Christmas season. I so desperately want a child to share the joys of the holidays with….and year after year, my dream is not coming true.
I have tried hard to find symbols to associate….friends of mine have butterflies. I’m actually not sure how it started, but they associate butterflies with their daughter and are comforted when they see them, which is quite often! Maybe I am looking too hard?
However, the other day I was stopped in the road and randomly noticed a heart in the sky. To be more accurate, I think it was a heart shaped balloon weight and it was dangling from phone wires. But it was small and actually pretty hard to see because of how it was spinning around. Yet the fact that it caught my attention, I feel must mean something. So I’m not sure if something as obvious as hearts will be a symbol or just things that I randomly spot that maybe are hard to see. Only time will tell.