I wish I had something to share.
I wish I could say it gets better, but it doesn't. Your grief will never lessen, you will just learn to manage it better.
There will still be days, hours, minutes where you feel like you're drowning in grief, like it's just as fresh as the first moment. Let it happen. Let the waves wash over you. It feels like the tears will never stop, but they will. Your love will never stop, your grief will never stop.